do not compare yourself to her
she is beautiful
you are beautiful
you both are two different kinds of beautiful
you can’t compare the sun to the moon
and you shouldn’t
so when you see that woman
you say “god bless her” and “god bless me”
and keep it moving, love.
Life is so fucked up sometimes. Like I would of like to have said was, “yeah you should get out of the car and go home because I don’t want to deal with this stupid shit tonight. I am so willing to do whatever it is you need to do, but when it comes around to what I want to do it’s either stupid of childish to you. Well running you around to drop shit off and be your “wing-man” is what I always wanted too do, yip-eee!” You literally don’t do that much. You sleep, eat, smoke, drink and work on days you have work then stay up all night doing absolutely nothing productive or in my opinion worth spending time on. I get your intentions are admirable and you want to do good by me and for yourself.. But the way you are approaching these obstacles are all wrong. But by all means don’t listen to me because what do I know? Right? I don’t know shit, I never lived in the real world to your standards, and I didn’t grow up living in hard times. I am just a spoiled little brat. Yeah I get it. No reason to be mad because what are doing is supporting you and making you money. That’s what you tell me. My bet is even if you did have the money you would still do it. Kind of like Walter White. I am mad, I am bummed.
What do you want from me??
I’m in love with someone who isn’t in love with me.
I guess I don’t really feel like your in love with me. More like you may love me because we know each other and are comfortable. And there is a difference between being in love and loving someone.
I’m over it.
I HATE BEING LIED TO.
I think I have ruined it. All of it.
Am I just sending these post off into the void for no one to read?
Or are you reading them silently, because you care about what’s on my mind?
You know who you are. Send me a sign. Let me know if you are….