Not only am I making the situation worse by letting it pass, but I am also putting you in a position where it is okay to not acknowledge what you’ve done. By just “forgetting” This I am just giving you the okay that I am fine with you treating me this way.
It came out of the blue. I don’t know why he has gotten so jealous and always thinks I am lying. We were doing good and then snap something happened. I have reevaluated this relationship over and over. I have lost friends over this relationship, I have lost my confidence and self admiration, I have spent 4 years trying to convice myself things will work out and I still am. I wake up and feel happy and then I am sad. It’s shitty and I still deal with it everyday because when it is good it’s really good and I look forward to more of those moments. I would be losing not just my first love but my best friend. I don’t know if it’s worth it.
I hate being lied to. I hate being treated like shit. And most of all I hate you keeping secrets from me. You blame me for all these things that I do wrong when really you should be looking in the mirror and blaming yourself.